Today i only had WSAS practical. After that i have no more lessons. So, went home... Called grandma late, and because she never cook anything, so i had to settle my own lunch. Then i told her nvm, i just cook packet noodles and ate. Once in awhile, packet noodles taste nice also la...=).
Completed my resume and then emailed to mum for her to check for me, cos she said she wanna help me to check... Haiz, so what's up next? There'd probably be an interview...i'm numbed...the first interview screwed up... But, i hope no interview...resume still not enough info there?! I wonder, i thought this project require 2/3 students, how come the supervisor only sent an email to me ask me to write resume? The other student who chose this project no need?! Or is it like what Jiahui told me, the supervisor know that student, and so yah, he just pick him, no need to see anything... Hey...no fair! LOL. Anyways, nvm, i think they just want to see your ability bahs, nothing else...
Sometimes, i really feel there is no freedom...not as in i'm not allowed to do this and that all those things...well, how should i put it? Just feeling very miserable, and i'm feeling this has become a burden to me?! Keep on thinking about it...why can't i have my own way! Then all want me to go that "alien" place which i do not want to! Stop forcing me!!! Then they got to mention it everytime!!! I just don't want ok or not?! Yes, i'm not talking about my friends at all, its just my parents plus relatives!!! I can't take this anymore... I don't know why they like to "force" me in doing something which i do not like at all... Its for my good i know...but, i tell you, i don't like i won't do any better... I think its just like my primary and secondary school days bahs. I just don't like studying then, cos the subjects are super dry...english, chinese, science, all the languages, year in year out for 10 years!!! Its just getting tougher, that's all! But no choice, have to study...just that i don't do well everytime. Then got scolded "stupid" everytime...reason? Because my cousins and other people out there can do so much better, why can't i??? Sick and tired of this. I'm not stupid ok, just maybe, slow in learning... All individuals are different. All learn at different paces. Am i right? I explained to them so many times le, but they just die die want me go there -.-". When would they feel how i'm thinking?! Just wanna breakdown and cry, but no use...it doesn't solve matters at all... I just hope someone would understand how i feel... My friends, maybe some of them, i hope so...