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as i walk alone in the cold rain,
my mind drifted away to the past.
to what we used to be
to the secrets we used to share.
how i wish you were here with me,
sharing the umbrella
in this lonely yet cold night.
whispering sweet nothings in my ear
i miss you so much.

Friday, September 23, 2005

I only have one week after exams for break before fyp starts. But, i knew, i had to work again. No choice, short of one worker, really cannot manage lor, so i go help, even me also busy, shou mang jiao luan...haha, very messy. Just help to clear all those paper works. And a good news, perhaps i will take over my dad's business. Anyway, even in this line of business its quite difficult to earn money already, let alone other businesses =x. The plus point is, my dad could be expanding his office and he allowed me to look for another person to help out with the business. I have one person in mind already =). Don't know whether she would agree or not. That person can say i'm close with de...but i haven't told her yet, wait till time is closer then break the news to her.

Tuesday while going down to collect letters, i saw Hong Hao at IMM, such a coincidence. First question he asked me whether i'm going for chalet or not =x. I said no, cos i am working. I guess perhaps he came there to get the chalet stuffs with Derek bahs.

Wednesday was the internship briefing. Just went and met my supervisor. After that went out with Jennifer for lunch and recky my workplace at Raffles Place. There are lots of buildings there, everywhere i go i see buildings, hahas. Anyway...well, i don't wanna mention here...sian... I only told someone my problem...nvm nvm, its always me, i also don't know why. Perhaps its really "fate" bahs. Now, i really in this thing called "fate". I hope, this thing i lost, i would have gained something useful as well......i really hope so...

Thursday and Friday i stayed at home, cos Mei Yee came back from M'sia already. So i treat it as "my holiday period". Recently, i started listening to the radio more often, and i realised something. Music rang wo gen jing cai! Really!!! Just now Junyang's Guardian Angel was on broadcast on 93.3FM. Ahh! I luv his songs! Even those Jay Chou's songs that he sang, i think its also very nice. Although, previously i hate Jay's songs, yah, i admit i hate... But, now because of Junyang, i like!!! He really has that talent to become a jue dui superstar! I didn't know that an admiration for someone could cause you to change so much for that person... It spurred me to learn how to play his songs on piano. Tong Hua, Jie Kou, Qing Tian...and others. I started to go learn how to sing those songs also... I can say he is my inspiration ^^. I look forward to his album! So much wanted to go to superstar concert, but i know i can't, because the tix are expensive... Junyang's gonna sing solo, that's the part i wanna see most. There's also a lovers duet, Junyang and Candyce. I hope they would telecast the superstar concert on TV. Haiz...

Wonder how Lay Kuan and Kelly is doing now. I hope to meet them really soon when school starts... I don't know whether Lay Kuan, you would get to read this, but i know you are working now. Whatever you are doing, work hard, jiayou, don't give up okay. Maybe will go and visit you in the weekends if possible =).

9/23/2005 11:29:00 AM
alone* in the rain;

Friday, September 16, 2005

Exams are finally over... But, but, i've got attachment starting from the 26 Sept. I have only one week so called holidays. Why i say so called, because i still have to work la... Help out in my dad's office, cos short of one worker mah...just do what i can lor...

Alrights, lets see, during the study break, stayed at home to study lor...study till i quite stressed...-.-". Then Monday was SS paper, my friend Trina also taking SS mah, then so coincident, her exam venue same as me!!! So we exchanged tips and last minute study... Then Jiahui arrived le, she see me so happy sia, cos i'm the indicator to where she sits mah...haha... The paper is quite okay. Tuesday is WSAS paper, met Siti and Jiahui when i reached school. But its not even like 5 minutes i sat down to do last minute study, i have to step into the examination hall already -.-". Wednesday, IC paper, no one same exam venue as me. Vincent asked me where i sitting and which room i am...haha, he said he forgot where he sit le. So i just tell him maybe the next class, cos my number is almost the last one le... Reached Blk 56, not long after, i saw Jiahui, then she asked me for last minute study thingys, so just tell her, then she went off to her exam venue le, its at the other end. Stayed till the end of paper, submitted the paper then left le. Wah, just in time, reached the bus-stop, 184 arrived! Then just boarded the bus, and i sat down next to someone whom i felt quite familiar with... Ohh! So coincident, its Tin Song. Haha... He had MWS paper today lah... Wah, 3 security papers at 3 consecutive days, same as my friend Trina. Then first question he ask me, "tml QLA how ah?", "which topics examined ah?". Haha, he so cute sia. Still ask me which topic examined. Examination of course all topics mah. Then we talked, and talked... Talk about his secondary school days...haha, my god, he said O Levels he did half way his paper, calculator no battery?! Reach my place, we still talking sia. So i said i reached my place le, gotta get down le. Quite a nice guy... Got to know him from PQS class actually...heh... At night, Chang Ye called me?! I don't know whatever for lah, then i just answered my hp. -.-" first question, he asked me, i know who am i talking to or not...hp got caller ID mah, i would know the caller de...ahaha... Then he just ask me what important things need to study, cos he only focus on those important topics mah... Thursday is my last paper, QLA paper. Reached school, then met Jennifer. Then she asked me some questions, quite tricky. But, we both came to a conclusion...=) Then not long after, Chang Ye arrived le, asked me for last minute tips. Reached examination hall, omg i'm sitting right infront lor, first one in the row! First time sit right infront. Then during the exam, got 2 people keep on talking infront of me. So loud somemore. They got nothing better to do ah? Hahas... After the exam, met Chang Ye, then we went to the bus-stop together le... Gonna reach home le, realised Jennifer smsed and called me. Quickly called back... Then shocked to hear that she think she will fail?! Haiz...won't fail de...so i just encouraged her, tell her don't feel so depressed and no mood, otherwise affect her next paper. And, still got hope cos she did put her workings. Cos she still got another paper in the afternoon on the same day. Glad that she picked up herself again to have the mood to study =).

Haiz, Wednesday still gotta go back school for FYP IP briefing at 10am. After that meeting Jennifer for lunch! I will miss the times with her. Can say she is a closer friend to me for this semester. I think i don't feel so alone because of her... And i think she is someone i must learn from. I've never seen someone ever so optimistic about life before. Yups, so sorta looking forward to Wednesday.

Today, wenta work at my dad's office, bcos short handed mah, no choice...really very busy... Reached home about 8pm le... Dead tired. At home, Dad was talking about whether i can enter Singapore Uni or not, if cannot wanna enter Aust U? No way!!! I'd rather enter Singapore U. Don't wanna go so far just for that paper -.-". Why people in this world are so xian shi de?! They see qualifications and nothing else. You don't have that paper, out you go... How unfair. What's got it do with that paper?! No use de mah. Ok, maybe it is true that you would get higher positions and looked upon, but then so what lah...-.-". Really, think its ...... I think i'd probably end up doing business. Its the only line that can earn money. As in what type of business, maybe insurance...yah, car insurance...kinda getting abit interested into it le, cos i've been exposed to it since after my o levels in sec 4. You see, everyone who owns a car needs to buy insurance for their car! But, there's still a problem, there's so many agents out there! All yan beng one...ahaha...gotta "fight" with them...also quite tiring... Oh ya, back to the topic, i was saying, office was short handed today cos Mei Yee went home Malaysia, celebrate lantern festival. Quite sad without her, so quiet leh...

Oh ya, i can't get enough of Tong Hua!!! It just keeps getting nicer each time i play it on the piano. Then while i was playing, dad came out of the room and said, "Huh? You playing ah? So nice leh, i thought other people playing this piece on the piano..." Eh...i know i lousy, but then, really so fake meh? Haha. Its really me playing!!! Yups, i should upload the song i played on my lappy. Got a few mistakes though cos when i'm recording, i feel abit concerned to what i'm playing and i tend to make mistakes. But, without recording i can play flawless. That's without recording =(. Ahaha, can i say Junyang's my inspiration? I think he really is...... Now, i'm even trying to play other pieces on my piano, self learn at my own free time. Quite hard though. I need time...

Its quite late le, somemore tonight got ghost show on channel U - gui ling! Wanna go watch le...hee~

9/16/2005 11:03:00 PM
alone* in the rain;

Sunday, September 04, 2005

Been busy with lotsa stuffs lately... And, i think, i'm getting a lil too stressed up for exams... Studied until i broke down twice today...arghz... Think lotsa things to rmb... I've got this feeling, "Die, not enough time to finish studying..." everytime... Really...

Oh yah! I watched superstar grand finals on Thursday night! My, my, its a long three and a half hours show! From 7.30pm all the way till 11pm! 7.30pm to 8pm was the preview of the competition, how the competition started off, the audition and all those thingys. And, i thought i saw someone like Steven! I thought he went for the auditions for the project superstar, cos there was a shot showing this guy singing for the auditions and it looked very much alike Steven! Aha, even Lay Kuan agreed with me too! Then 8pm to 11pm was the grand finals at the indoor stadium. And, the best part is, i get to see Junyang sing again!!! Hee! Then Junyang and Xinhui got to sing duet, the song, wu ding. Aha, Junyang and Xinhui got to hold hands in the song to sing. Junyang like very unwilling wor...LOL! *Gossip, gossip* Junyang like Candyce, but they claim they are good friends only...Hahas, okok, enough for this busybody thingy... Oh yeah, another good news, i read from the papers that huan qiu ying yue is signing up Junyang to path his music carreer? Wow, if this is really true, i look forward to listening his songs in his album!!! Coming up 30 Sept is Superstar's concert with all the 24 people. Haiz, really hope i can go, but the tickets are quite expensive leh. If someone can sponsor... Can see Junyang and Derrick...ahaha...

Exams are coming up...haiz...i've got 4 papers! Arghs...i must learn to relax!!! Haiz, but how? I'm just like a wodden puppet, so stiff de...must learn to be flexible! LOL... Okay! Everyone, for those taking exams, Jiayou!

9/04/2005 08:45:00 PM
alone* in the rain;