sweet innocence//alone*

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as i walk alone in the cold rain,
my mind drifted away to the past.
to what we used to be
to the secrets we used to share.
how i wish you were here with me,
sharing the umbrella
in this lonely yet cold night.
whispering sweet nothings in my ear
i miss you so much.

Saturday, October 15, 2005

The days passes so fast, gonna be week 4 of FYP le. 16 more weeks to go. Monday, other than tabulating survey results i dunno what to do le. Hope Alphonsus doesn't ask me what to do =x. I would really be tongue-tied. I was chatting with Jennifer, then Jennifer told me Alphonsus is those shy shy type de... I was wondering, "guys would be shy de?" Hahas, i've always thought only girls are shy =p. Maybe i haven't known enough guys...lols. And one thing, someone told me that guys and girls are the same, but i've always thought of them differently. That someone told me that whatever guys do, girls can as well... Perhaps from young i've already started hated guys that's why. I shall leak a little secret here.

In primary school, i think i was only primary 1 or 2 then. Got this guy, sitting in the same group as me somemore (last time we sat in groups, colour groups, red, blue, yellow, blah, blah...) He bullied me always! Its the real type of bully ok! He took my water bottle, took my ruler, whatever things he can take, he take -.-". So, from then on, my thinking is like, "i hate guys!!!, I'm never never gonna make any guy friends at all!" Other than those guys who would auto talk to me de, i seldom approach guys de...even until now, cos i still fear this type of thing would happen, although i'm so old le...

As time goes by, and as i get older, i slowly realised there are really nice guys around. In secondary school, hmm, i met one bahs, although in the beginning he like to "say" me, but then after that, we were in the same course, then there was once we took the same elective, and i asked him for help. He helped readily. Aww, so nice~ really thankful, otherwise i think i wouldn't have survived the assignment That's when my thinking for guys change. Poly days passes by, that's when i met more guys, most of em, really helpful, although i think they ask more help from me, but when i ask them for help, they really helped... Hahas, i just think nice guys are hard to come by... And only until now, i'm finally coming to accept guys and girls are the same...LOL. Issn't abit too slow? I know, i know... Maybe that's because why i haven't found a bf. My thinking stopped me mah...ahahas. Ok, crap =p. But i tell you, it issn't easy finding someone you really like. Maybe that someone i like already has a gf, or maybe that someone i like doesn't like me...aha, imaginative thinking eh? Bleahs. Actually i've got someone i like, but then, yah, i'm gonna repeat what i've just said, maybe that someone already has a gf, or maybe that someone just doesn't like me? Hahas.

Ok, enough bf, gf talk. My friends especially like this topic, i really dunno why. Spare me please! How many times have i said i haven't got a bf liao. Still say i bluff =x. Ahh, i'm missing my long time no see friend again le...LOL. The hello kitty paper from the capsule thingy still at my home wor~ Everytime i see that, remind me of her and her capsule thingy craze...Ahahas. Hope we can catch up really soon. Miss ya! =p

10/15/2005 03:38:00 PM
alone* in the rain;