1st December 2007 is a day i will remember forever. I believe you have your own difficulties. I will try to be happy and i wish you happiness. I will treasure every moment with you as a friend. Shan't reveal too much here. Perhaps somethings are better kept to myself. A few weeks have passed, i thought i had recovered, but unknown to me, i realised i hadn't. Everytime Saturday came, it reminded me of you and the words you told me. Deep inside me, i still feel very sad and i still can't bring myself to accept this fact. Thinking of you and the happy times we had, although short, still made me tear. I really treasured every moment we had together. Maybe time will heal my wounds, i hope... You will always have a very special place in my heart. I will never find anyone better than you, at least for now.
4th December 2007 is another day i will remember forever. My grandma passed away due to cancer. She suffered the same fate as my grandfather. Now, i don't have any grandparents le =(. Everytime Sunday came, it reminded me of her. Every Sunday, my familiy would go over for dinner. I remember, just one month ago, she was still able to move about although she was already undergoing treatment. One month later and the last Sunday i met her, she wasn't able to talk already... When my parents broke the news to me that my grandma passed away that night, i was shocked, although trying to hide my feelings...
In just a week, too many things happened. In front of my friends and family, i had to act strong. I realised i'm pretty good at acting these days...
Just yesterday, i went for Wendy's birthday party despite feeling unwell. Stomach not feeling well the night before, then the next day i was feeling ok. Only after lunch, my stomach was feeling unwell again, most probably due to the food i eat ~.~. I ate very little...haha, even you realised that, and i tested you and pretended to ask you how did you know? You gave me a funny reply =P. "You thought you are actress meh? Your stomach was feeling unwell the day before, then today, you ate so~little. You think i can't tell meh?"
Ever since you left me, i've been keeping my thoughts more than ever to myself. I thought i should share some with you, but i think i should keep some to myself too. I'm all by myself now. Although short, i finally understood what it is to like/love a person. I wished it could be longer, but you didn't give me nor yourself another chance. I had wanted so much to have that chance, yet everytime, it has to be tarnished. Time and again, when i asked you, you gave me replies which disappoint me everytime. But i told myself, its ok, perhaps you have your own difficulties. I hope i really could have that second chance though. You told me you couldn't bring yourself to do so. Its ok, i'll try to wait. In the meantime, nothing matters, as long as you are happy =).
I ever thought to myself, have you ever liked me before? Did you ever regret knowing me?
One blow after another. I didn't know what i did to deserve this. For one week, i cried almost every night before i went to sleep. It was that terrible... Perhaps you didn't know, that's how big a impact you have on me...
I'm just to sad to go on...perhaps no one would understand me now...
